undefine person

lights, camera, struck a pose
and if someone help you
put lipstick on, yeah
high heels higher, 6-feet tall
and everybody knows who you are

and nobody cares if your heart is aching
nobody cares if you want no more
nobody wants to know you cried the night before

vaster your dreams and your hopes into it
everything you used to know is gone
and you're slipping into in your own
trying not to lose yourself

cause these lights won't kill me now
saying these clothes won't change me now
saying these words won't scare me now
saying i will be myself

friendly people all around
and time to put your best face on
smiling like there's nothing wrong
though deep down you feel so alone

and nobody sees who you are inside
nobody knows that you're so much more
nobody needs to know
you're tired of putting a show

nobody cares if your heart is aching
nobody cares if you want no more
nobody wants to know
nobody cares at all

I want to be myself ...


-yuna; lights and camera-

p/s monday bluess ... rindu :(

plan?

Such a long time i've nver update on this belog ye
many things to think and to do smpai hilang trus minat berbelog ni huhu
but sokay.. still i have something to say here :)

Now i'm in the last semester which means.. dh nk habis study lah kn?
Kalau org dh sibuk keje .. kawin  bagai smpai dh ade anak..
but me , still struggling on how to finish my study successfully.
of course la kene successful kalau tak sia2 je 'kakak' ni bljr tinggi2
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Skrg, otak tgh pkir byk plan nk buat pas study
inshaAllah semoga dipermudah kn urusan.. aminn..

spread your love!

amboii

sweet gitteww ye

thanks fer everything

fer being my everything

and made me yr everything

*'fer' bunyi gedik sikitt

setia

setia? ya.. setia..
setia tu adalah perkataan yang sangat mulia untuk orang yang mulia.

setia dengan kawan, pasangan masing-masing, keluarga.. and most importantly setia dengan cinta ilahi.

akhir-akhir ni memang banyak sangat ujian daripada Allah bila umur semakin meningkat
yes! I am 24 this year and my maturity is getting bigger.
why I say so because I became less sensitive towards something that is childish to me and focusing only towards that much important need to be done first.

yep, kadang-kadang kita kena lebih berfikiran seperti orang dewasa and bersikap lebih matang bila mana kita mampu selesaikan masalah sndiri tanpa bantuan orang lain.

sometimes ada jugak saya rasa mcam penat untuk setia sebab apa yang dihajati tak sama dengan apa yang diharapkan tapi setia dengan Allah tak sama, Dia boleh beri kita apa saja yang kita nak dalam hidup ni..

so I just feel that, is it because I missed a little less loyalty towards God and then the returns pun saya tak dapat apa yang saya expect. It feels so disappointed.. kecewa dengan orang lain tak habis-habis.. apatah lagi kecewa dengan diri sendiri yang tak sudah-sudah dari dulu lagi bila tak mampu nak selesaikan masalah sendiri.

memang terasa berat sangat dengan ujian Allah yang bagi ni.. (mungkin nampak biasa di mata orang lain) tapi masing-masing tak sama.. setiap ukuran kebolehan or kemampuan yang ada cuma boleh dilihat dari mata Allah sahaja.. sebab itu setiap apa yang datang kena bersyukur dengan ikhlas yang mana kadang-kadang saya sendiri rasa selalu terlupa nak bersyukur.

Ya Allah, janganlah bagi hamba ni lagi jauh dari cinta-Mu :'(

when something bitter become sweet as pie.. ;)

well

he maybe not like this

but quite similar though

and more cuter than this i think

why I say so because

each time we had an argument

yeah he the one who will get mad, I mean so mad worst than me

but in the end

he's the one too will apologize and calm myself down before it could turn more worst

in this case

and situation like this

it makes me love him more and more

thanks for loving me each day I woke up

Mr. A ;)

having twice birthday celebration

that day, about a week ago I guess (hari ape pun dh lupe -.-), my lovely housemates buat surprise cake for me and my friend, atikah. actually sikit pun x terpikir yg still ade org nk bagi surprise cake kat kite sebab it has been so long I've never had a surprise cake from my friends since after school dulu.

since my birthday on August, so tak penah expect ade orang akan buat surprise as my birthday always kene time bulan puasa tak pun raye. waktu sekolah my birthday always jatuh time hari exam, mane tak berharap. so perasaan tu mcm dh terbiasa.

but then, this year for the first time sambut birthday twice in a year sebab selalunye dapat sambut ngn family je. well I'm really glad with this surprise anyway. even it is just a simple surprise tapi I really do appreciate it. thanks a lot guys! how i love u so much!

it is not about how many friends you have

it is about how you value the friendship you ever have

:')

an infinite happiness..

each time I look at those pictures of married couple (they always show off their happiness after getting married), I always dreaming-hoping-praying that some day I will find my own infinite happiness too!

setiap kali perasaan nak berumah tangga tu datang (and it always appear because of looking at those wedding pictures), mesti ade angan-angan pikir nk tema wedding camne, dress camne, oh myy... memikirkan semua tu mesti rasa masa ni begitu lambat berlalu..

but the fact is, I knew that Allah sebenarnya sedang memberi masa untuk saya dan juga si dia bersiap-siap untuk melangkah setapak yang lebih jauh..

He, who was struggling and aiming to get higher achievement awards in electrical engineering, saya selalu doa kan semoga dia berjaya harungi sampai akhir sem..

And me, am struggling for another not just one, but two scrolls in next year.

Semoga semoga semoga Allah izinkan kejayaan kami berdua bukan untuk bermegah tapi sekadar untuk membuktikan yang kami pun boleh berjaya macam orang lain and what is left is just "the magical effort" and dont forget to "magical prayers" only from the Almighty God, Allah.

And I am also non-stop planning for our future indeed, getting a degree of infinite happinesss with my loved future husbannddd!

So, my wishlist;

1. having a memorable wedding pictures with my future husband and future family.
2. travelling. because I love travelling so much!
3. twin kids. boy and girl. or a boy and a girl as long as we have a pair kids in the future.
4. a cute simple little house for us. I kinda not interested in living in a huge house sebab rasa macam membazir. cukup lah sekadar a simple nice medium-sized of our living in future, lagipun dah tua-tua esok tak larat aii nak kemas rumah besaq-besaq.. heee...
5. making good business plan. already in my head before continuing my studying.
6. doing charity. well I love helping other people in need ;)
7. and of course. sampai ke cucu cicit saya mau hidup bersama my hubby, if not, I always pray that we could live together in jannah jua. isn't it sweet :')


but whatever it is, kita hanya mampu merancang, Allah jualah yang menentukan segalanya..